Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I'm Late, I'm Late, I'm Late...........

Ok - so I'm a REALLY bad blogger..I'm trying to get better, but it doesn't seem to be happening...

Much to update, much to do...Here I go...

I have got to take pictures of my Secret Angel Exchange gift swap that I did. Unfortunately, it's been crazy and I haven't had an opportunity. Will try to get this done ASAP.

Job info: Still working for the U.S. Census Bureau, but it's not going to last. Work is dwindling, and I'm probably on my last week or so, but it's been a good run. I have work for tomorrow, and probably Friday as well, so I'm grateful for that. I do have a line on a job with the city government here in Lexington, which would be nice, as it's like $20/hour plus benefits. I could live with that....

Teaching job info: As of now, I still don't have a teaching job for the fall. It's still early, but nothing's come up yet, and I'm not counting on it. I've got several jobs I want to apply for, but I'm not getting my hopes up. Please continue to pray for me, to see God's will in all of this. I would much rather have a teaching job, to start paying my loans off, but it's not an easy field to break right now, specially since I'm hearing that several teachers have been given pink slips b/c they are consolidating jobs at the moment.

Life in general: Life at my mom's is in a word - horrible - I'm glad we've got a roof over our heads, don't get me wrong, but my mom has become so hateful and so mean that I can't stand much more. She tells me everyday that she hopes I don't get pregnant, that if we do have kids they're going to be horrible and bratty, that she'll spank them if they misbehave, etc. It's so mean and hateful that I just can't stand it. She talks about how we "never" do "anything" around the house and that we just think of it as a motel - a place to sleep and take advantage of the facilities. It's just crazy. I'm not sure about where we're going to go though -- problem is that I'm not working full time and I'm going to have to be if we're going to afford another place. I'd love to move -- LOVE to move -- but Nathan's pretty dead set on NOT moving, so I'm thinking that's a no go, unless I get a teaching job outside of the local area.

TTC: We're in limbo at the moment. I'm on CD 107, and 67 days late on my period...However, the pregnancy test came back negative, so I'm going with not preggers at the moment. I've got to get to the Dr, that's all there is to it...I just hate that it takes FOREVER to get into my OB/GYN for a pap and check up...But he's one of the best and I've been with his practice since I was 18, so I'm not switching unless he retires or something..Plus he specializes in infertility, so yeah, I'm good.

Funny story: So I took the munchkin (little girl from church (well, not little, she's 10) ) to see the Hannah Montana Movie for her birthday. I throughly enjoyed the movie in all honesty, but that's not the point. The point is, we went to Babi.es R U.s after the movie to get the "Preggy Pops" for upset tummies (as mine seems to stay upset these days, and at the oddest times). I didn't want to make another drive to Hamburg to go back, so I just took her with me. So we go looking for them, and she asks why we're looking for them and why I'm buying them. Well, I didn't want to tell her everything, but yet I didn't want to lie to her, so I told her that I *might* be having a baby...She was thoughtful for a few moments, and then she responds to what I have said by saying "Well, have you TAKEN a pregnancy test"? I was so shocked by the question, I didn't honestly know how to respond. I didn't know how much she knew about the birds and the bees, and didn't want to open a can of worms, however, seemingly, it was already opened before I said anything! Alas, I did tell her tonight that as of now, there is no baby on the way, but I reminded her of what I told her at this time last year: Babies will come when babies come. I'm not totally in control of that, God is. I'm waiting on His timing (no matter how hard), and I'm learning patience in the midst of it all (something Nathan is grateful for!).

Something else of interest, that I'm going to post on later, we just passed our 1st wedding anniversary! We were married a year ago on May 17, 2008! I can't believe we've made it a year (with all we've been through), but that's another post entirely, and I will get to that sooner rather than later, I promise!

I think that's it for tonight -- Nathan is already in bed, and I need to be heading there myself. In the mean time, please say a prayer for those buttons on my sidebar -- specially for sweet April Rose (who's mamma is 40 weeks TODAY a milestone she never thought she'd reach!) and for sweet Kayleigh's family who had to say goodbye to her last week :(

Also, if you're reading my blog, comment so I know who you are and so I can update my blog rolls. I'm going to try to get better at this, so bear with me! :)

~Melissa~

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Long time, no blog...

I'm guilty guilty guilty...I haven't blogged in forever, but I've been online. I'm going to make a quick update, and then head to bed, seeing as it's almost 1am EDT and I've got much to do on Wednesday 4/29.

Job front: I got a job! I'm working for the U.S. Census Bureau, and it's only temporary, but it's a job for now! I'm excited to be doing something at least, so no complaints from me. I'm still looking for a teaching job, but will discuss that more in a paragraph or two.

TTC: Not much really to report, except that we thought we were pregnant, but it turned up negative. I'm still late (Day 84) to be exact, so I'm still not totally sure what's going on. Hoping to make an appt to go see the Dr. and try to figure it out.

Living Situation: We've got to get out of my mom's house. She's almost fully recovered from surgery back in March and in June her court case will be dismissed. In the mean time, she's driving us crazy. There's no way around it. I've also had several epiphanies regarding her and my relationship with her, but still need to explore these more fully before trying to explain them. Needless to say, I'll figure it out, and when I do, I'll post about it more fully. Suffice to say, it's quite involved and I'm not sure how to address it as of yet. We're looking for a place to move, and hopefully I can continue working and making money, which will allow us to find a nice place to live and we can live comfortably.

Teaching jobs: Nothing to report yet, but I do have a MAJOR prayer request -- tomorrow (4/29) I'm meeting with the superintendent of a local school district. She is a friend of my mom's, but said previously that she would have helped me out with an opportunity last fall if she had had one available. I'm not putting all of my eggs in one basket...ok well, maybe I am, but still....Please pray for me, that I see God's will be done in this, not mine. I would LOVE nothing more than for her to have a job opportunity for me, but I know that's only the case if it's God's will, not mine. I am praying for this and have been for almost a week now, since I found out about the meeting, but I'm terribly nervous and anxious to land a teaching job, even if it means we have to put off our family for a year or two while I manage my internship years and whatnot.

School: I can't really complain, but school didn't go as well as I would've liked this term. I've still got some time to try to get my last class finished up and finished up well, but time doesn't seem to be allowing for that. I've got to sit down and do some work this weekend, so please pray that I make the time to do so.

I think that's about it -- I may be missing something here or there, but those are the highlights.

Prayer Requests: See my sidebar buttons! These are the biggest prayer requests on my heart, but there are others as well! Pray for Stellan (www.mycharmingkids.net), pray for Abby (www.riggsfamilyblog.com), Pray for the Compassion India Team (see Angie Smith's blog at Bring the Rain on the sidebar), my best friend, Tiffany -- she doesn't know Christ, plus she's lost two dogs in a week, one of them being her service dog (Monk). Please pray for my job interview and that we can find a home for ourselves and our family (whenever that family may come along).

I'm gone to bed for now, but will try to update more often and certainly after my interview (although it will be a late one, because I have church right after I get done!).

~Melissa~

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Where does the time go?

It seems like I can't keep up with things anymore! As we get into spring (warmer weather, yay!), it seems I get busier and busier, and I'm not even working! I'm still job hunting like crazy, trying to find anything to hold me over till I get a teaching job, but yet nothing is coming.

Living with my mom has got to come to an end...It's so hard to live here with her, and attempt to get along with her. I love my mom dearly, don't get me wrong, but we are too much alike and too different at the same time to really live together. I figured that out last year when I moved out. I've heard you can always come home..and while that's true, it's not true in every sense, and I don't really feel like this is home anymore. I haven't felt that way in a long time, but for now, I guess I just have to make the best of it.

Mom is through back surgery, doing well, and back to many of her previous activities. Hopefully in the next couple of weeks, she'll be back to normal and out of this recovery phase. She still has the incisions, although the staples are out and they are healing, they are itching her like crazy, and in the process, making her crazier! Alas, this is temporary, although we will have to go through it every two years to put in a new box with new batteries and new technology.

TTC isn't really happening right now -- we're not really in a place to try right now (read: my mom's!), and I don't think the metformin treatment is working -- as there have been no results from it. I won't do gory details (at least not right now!), but suffice to say I'm seeing no difference in anything at the moment. I'll make an appointment to head in and see the Dr. soon enough, and see what he thinks the next course of action should be. However, it's at this point we can really start trying for the 2010 baby we were aiming for, because 9 months from now will be Jan! :) also, it would be nice to know whether or not I'm teaching this fall, as I don't know what arrangements I would be able to have for maternity leave in my first year of teaching (not doing KTIP thankfully!).

I guess that's all for now -- I'm tyring to get a few things done and finished so that I can move on to more interesting things!

~Melissa~

Monday, March 9, 2009

Life....

Well, my mom's surgery went well...She's home and resting (I'm writing this a week after she had surgery). They put a new neurostimulator in her back, along with new lead wires and whatnot. They also checked her previous surgery location, checking on the rods and pins that area in place. All seems to be well -- I was/am still a bit pertrubed that her Dr. did not come out and consult with us after the surgery was over. I realize that she had 2 more surgeries to go, but we still would've liked to have heard from her the status and what went on. We got bare bones information from a nurse that was in surgery with the Dr.

I'm still looking for a job as well -- I just can't seem to land anything. I keep checking out good opportunities, but nothing seems to pan out.

Today isn't a good day in the land of the infertile...Every time I log into Facebook/Myspace/etc, someone else I know is pregnant or just had a baby. I am thrilled for them all, they wouldn't be on my friends lists if I didn't love and care about them all, but I don't know how much more I can take. It's also my own fault for being on the computer so much (that's what happens when I'm looking for jobs, working on homework, getting ready for class, etc). I'm thrilled for my friends, I really am, but at the same time, I sad for me/us :(

Anyone have any ideas on how to get over the pain and sadness that comes with being infertile?

I think I'm done...I had more to blog about, but I'm just not up to it.........

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Updates and the like....

Well -- I'm a little behind, but getting there. Several things going on (well, more than several, but several will do!).

First of all (probably the most involved thing) is that we are moving into my mom's for a bit. This will allow us to save some money, but it will also allow me to keep tabs on what's going with my mom, health wise.

Secondly, I got a "full time" job, but it only lasts for like 3 weeks, and I'm totally not sure if it's worth it or not. I'll be working at Toys R Us for the next 3 weeks as a cashier. However, since it's such a short amount of time, I'm not totally sure that it was even worth it to take the job in the first place, but oh well.

I applied for several more jobs, and interviewed for one of them, and felt REALLY good about it, however, I haven't heard anything more from them, and they said they'd make a decision early this week (well that would've been Monday or Tuesday, and it's almost Wednesday!). They said they would contact everyone regardless of whether they deicded to hire them or not, but alas, nothing yet.

Thirdly, we have family Christmas party on Dec. 13, and somehow, I'm dreading this. It all goes back to the issue from October (which hopefully I will get to blog about next week), but I'm dreading this crap. Too much drama with my family and I can't stand it!

Fourth, I think I get to coach my own Upward Basketball team this winter (starting in Jan!). I can't wait! I think I'm coaching 2nd/3rd girls and I couldn't be more excited! So much to do with these kids and I hope I can make a difference in their lives and in the lives of their family.

Fifth -- I start FAITH in Feb with PMBC! I can't wait to take part in FAITH -- it's something I've been wanting to do for awhile, but haven't had the time to do it on Monday nights. I've arranged my school schedule so that it won't interfere with FAITH, so I'm happy! I can't wait to see God work in the lives of those I get to visit!

I guess that's all the big news....I still have baby fever -- it doesn't seem to be going away....anyone have any ideas? It seems like everytime I log into facebook, myspace, livejournal, etc, someone else is pregnant (and it's not me!). We're not really trying though, so I can't complain too much -- we just don't really have the resources right now, plus a decision I made from about 2002 until 2006 may prevent us from getting pregnant easily. This saddens me, but I know that I made the decision and now I have to live with whatever the consequences are. Simply, I took Depo-Provera way too long. I should have only stayed on it for 2 - 2.5 years, but stayed on it nearly 4. Not a good idea...Alas, what's done is done.

But yeah, that's it...Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving -- we had a good one -- went to Nathan's parents and ate there. We'll eventually do "Thanksgiving" with my mom, once she's feeling better.

Bedtime for now......

Monday, November 24, 2008

Thanksgiving and more

Well, Thanksgiving is Thursday and I'm a bit behind. I haven't blogged since right after Halloween, and that's mainly due to being behind in everything (including my classes)! So here's the nutshell of what's going on:

We're moving in with my mom for a bit. Not entirely sure how long it will last (how long can my sanity take it?), but we're going. This is for several reasons, but part of it has to do with the prayer requests that I asked for right before Halloween.

The prayer request stuff: Things are getting better, and almost to a point where I can actually talk about what's going on. Not quite yet, but we're getting there. I would anticipate that I can actually begin talking about what's going on in about 2 to 2.5 weeks.

On the job front, I have an interview tomorrow at 1:15pm. Please Please PLEASE pray for me about this -- this is a great opportunity for me (and would help us out tremendously). I would LOVE to take the job that I am interviewing for tomorrow, but I know there are other candidates that are being interviewed. One of the best things about this job is that it wouldn't cause me to miss church and my activities there. The other is that I would be working with kids for the majority of the time (it's not a teaching job, I wish!). It's a local, family owned company, but is growing quickly and could expand in the next couple of years.

General: I've got a bad case of baby fever! This has been going on for awhile (anyone who knows me, knows this!), but it seems like all of my friends and half the women at church are turning up pregnant! I'm feeling like a minority at the moment, and I don't like it! As always, I'm thrilled for those friends of mine and ladies at church that they are being blessed so richly, but that doesn't make waiting any easier! Of course, one of my friends did try to help me by saying "well wouldn't it be nice to be one of the only ones pregnant instead of being pregnant with everyone else?", and I'm appreciative of her efforts, but it didn't work!!! haha.... I'm praying for God's strength -- I know that we'll have a baby when it's in His timing, but that doesn't make the waiting any easier.

Sick: My grandmother isn't feeling so hot -- she was on vacation down in TX seeing my uncle (her son), and came home a week early because she didn't feel good. I hate that, because I know with everything else going on, she needed a vacation, but it didn't work out that way. Alas, I do want her to get to feeling better.

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If I don't get back on here until after Thanksgiving, I do hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and is blessed beyond measure. I know that I am! Glory to God! I am thankful for what He has given me the gift of eternal life that I have because of His Son!

Friday, October 31, 2008

Halloween

Well, Halloween is officially over. Nathan and I went to church to help out with the "Trunk or Treat" event, instead of staying home. We don't have kids in our neighborhood (we live in the college area of town, and I can't wait to get out)! We got to run the "concession stand" as Pastor Wayne called it..but yet, we never charged anything for anything!

Life is life. Things are still not necessarily better at the moment, but in time, they'll get better I'm sure.

I'm still begging for prayers for my family, and again, I will at some point, share what has been going on, but for right now, it has to stay as quiet as I can keep it.

Prayers are all that are keeping us going right now -- I know I've got great prayer warriors in my prayer buddies at church, and I know that my pastors are praying for us, but more prayer never hurt anyone! Please add us to prayer chains or just to your personal prayer list.

School started back for me this week -- back to the grindstone -- only this set of classes will be tougher than the last two. So much for my 4.0!!!

I guess that's all for now. I'm getting tired and we should be heading for bed, as it's 1:51am EDT, and we have to be up in the morning to help run a Magic: The Gathering Tournament, and we have to be there around 9:30!!!!

~Melissa~

Sunday, October 26, 2008

Long week...

It's been a long week. We've been involved with the Judgement House presentation at church, and it's been long. We've been at church every day this week, with the exception of Tuesday (and I think we ended up there somehow on Tuesday too!) and we're finally winding down. Somehow, I think we'll manage to get a few things done around the house before we head back to AWANA on Wednesday night. But I'm not sure how much will get done -- we'll see.

Judgement House was in a word, AWESOME!!! With God's help, many came to know Christ as their Savior, and many more rededicated their lives to Him! It's been an awesome experience to be involved with. I was a teacher (yes, I was typecasted!) in scene 3, with several high schoolers. We had an great time, a great team, and I feel like we really made a difference.

However, being involved left little time for anything else, including sleep. We skimped on sleep every night, and are totally exhausted. Nathan's still got to get up for work tomorrow (at 5:30am!) and I still need to get up and look for a full time job, so no rest for the weary!

Speaking on jobs...I could use a little prayer -- I'm still looking for a full time job (obviously, by the mentioning of it!), but I have a lead on a job that seems somewhat promising. It's a job that I would enjoy (it entails some politics!) and it's something I feel I can do well. Just pray that God's will be done with whatever job I end up in. I'm still trying to get in touch with some places that I have put resumes in at, but right now, not finding much.

Don't forget to vote! If you know me, you know my political views and opinions, but most of all, I want everyone to get out and VOTE!!! If you don't vote, don't whine!!!! :)

I guess that's it for now -- I think we're going to try and get some sleep at this point -- Nathan has to be up in 3 hours, but we need a little sleep anyway. I'm going to finish up my resume and cover letter in the morning and hopefully fax it off to hopefully be considered for what I consider to be a dream job for me!

Also, pray for those who went through Judgement House -- that they may be touched by the hand of Christ, and that they may never forget their experiences. Also pray for those who made decisions, that they will continue to follow the path they began.

~Melissa~