TTC

I said I'd post about our journey to having a baby, so here it is..This is just the beginning -- we are by no means finished, and we are willing to accept medical assistance if we need to...But this is our story...

Going back to when I was in high school, I had an ovarian cyst that was attempting to wrap its way around one of my fallopian tubes. Fortunately, I had a great OB/Gyn who caught it, and wanted to remove it right away. That was done 10 years ago this year -- March of '99. After that, I went through several different prescriptions of birth control pills -- prescribed to me to lessen the effects of the extreme PMS that I suffer. The added effect of pregnancy prevention was just an added perk, since I wasn't involved with anyone sexually at that time. After 2 years of pills, a new shot came out, called Lunelle. I jumped on it -- it was a once a month birth control shot that would supposedly help me better than the pills! I was estatic! It certainly lived up to its name -- I went on it right after it came out, and stayed on it until it was pulled from circulation due to several women becoming pregnant while on it. With a 99% accuracy claim, too many women got pregnant and Phizer had to pull it. After that, my Dr. decided that Depo-provera would be the best option for me, as it would allow me the same benefits as I had experienced on Lunelle, but with a greater time period between shots -- every 3 months. I was good with that -- I didn't do any research on it -- I thought all was well.

Fast forward to 2006...By this point, my OB/Gyn decided to retire in 2005, and I am now going to see a different Dr. in the same practice -- which I was ok with. At this point, I looked at it in terms that I'd rather be with a Dr. that is going to be around to deliver babies and take care of me for many years to come. I went to see my new Dr. for the first time, and after talking to him, collectively we decided that it would be best if I came off the Depo-Provera, as it was only meant to be taken for 2-2.5 years consecutively. I had been on it since 2002. This was a big issue, only we didn't know it at the time.

When Nathan and I met in 2007 (we had met prior to that, but when we first went out together), we knew soon after that we would get married. At this point, I was quite glad that I had made the decision to come off the Depo, because I figured at that point, it would allow for the 12-18 months that is the time frame for regaining fertility after being on Depo, and we could plan for a honeymoon baby. Which brings us to where we are now...We are now almost 3 years (in May) of being off the Depo. After discussions with my OB/Gyn, he prescribed me Provera in an attempt to regulate my cycles and for me to begin ovulating again. He encouraged us to get a fertility monitor to attempt to monitor what's going on with my body. We've done all of these things. We've thought we had it fixed, only to find out the next month that we were wrong. We suffered a miscarriage in July (July 9th to be exact), for unknown reasons. I recovered well from it, as I was only 5 to 6 weeks along. Currently, the Dr. has us trying the Metformin treatment, in hopes that it will solve the problems we are having. I'm not totally sure it will work, but I also know that this is all in God's hands. God is in control of our babies -- this much we know. However, I'm not known for my patience! As a matter of fact, I'm known for my impatience. I hate waiting for anything!

The way I'm looking at this at the moment is this: God will know when we are TRULY ready for Him to bless us with our first baby -- His timing will prevail and it will be PERFECT! I have to hold on to that truth -- God's timing is ALWAYS perfect, whether or not I have the patience to see it that way sometimes! I may not be a patient person when it comes to what I want, but for some reason, I have an incredible patience with kids (just ask my AWANA and VBS kids)!

Life is good -- Not always what I want, but God is in control either way!

We are beginning a new cycle -- I'm praying that this one is it, but either way, I know God will bring us through it! I've got several things on my mind right now -- some jobs to apply for, things to get done, etc, so hopefully I won't dwell on it too much! I know that we are just starting this journey of TTCing, but I look forward to blogging about it, and then hopefully celebrating with those that are experiencing the same highs and lows that we are (although I wouldn't wish this journey on anyone)!

Blessings!

Melissa :)